Lucky

i never dreamed my lap and arms would be this full of kids and life and energy. i never dreamed that becoming a mom would change me as much as it has- since the first moment a baby was placed in my arms. the highs have been higher; the lows, lower. from great joy to tears and everything in between, i have experienced it and felt it over the past 4 years. before we got pregnant, i never imagined myself changing diapers for this long. i had no idea that twins could go through over 4000 diapers in the first year alone! i had no idea i would think that 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep was a good nights sleep.

i never knew that kids could whisper, "i love you" or "you're the best mommy ever" and turn my mood around in an instant. my girls have asked more of me than i thought i could ever give some days, yet not a day goes by that demands too much of me. i will always have more love to give. more kisses and hugs to share. more pinky-promises to swear to them of my undying love, and more hope in my heart for what they will become.

it is overwhelming to be a mom- on so many different levels- and yet it's the most natural, wonderful thing i know how to do. love and wish and expect and dream and always be there for them no matter what. this is what motherhood means to me. i can only hope that i am living up to my expectations, if even in small part.

being a mom has changed me. i wouldn't want it any other way.

i love you, preslee, mason and finley! you are undeserving gifts in my life. forever and always. thanks for helping me become the mom i am lucky enough to be. i can't believe in a few days all of my girls are going to be a year older. your party on saturday is going to be amazing! i love you!!

mommy